This is my old friend....
(kinda blurry, but befitting at the same time)
She's been sitting here in my dinning room.
I've pushed her around.
Ive peeked in on her but,
Up until today I hadn't sat down with her in 4 months.
I opened her up
and like a long lost friend we picked up right where we left off.
This is the last project I worked on, it's the cover for the tell your story class.
The idea with the tie was that once I completed the story I would use the tie to hold it all together.
I didn't get very far...
I never did another page other than this one.
As I revisit the journaling I see the
"Looking forward to..." at the bottom of the page.
I knew I wanted to create...
create a lovely life, projects and art, but was paralyzed.
My intention when signing up for the class was to work through the issues I was having using my art.
But, I knew deep down inside that I was not REALLY being honest with myself about THE main issue of why I was struggling so.
Oh sure I was in therapy, but I was dancing around the truth.
So it makes sense to me now that, that is why I walked away from the process of creating.
At that time in my life ...
I would have been scrapbooking a lie.
It's a very powerful thing
Truth
it can eat you up inside
or...
set you free
There is still much work to be done.
And part of that work is...
visiting with my old friend
one who has been my creative outlet for the last 10 years.
Loving that my heart is beating a bit faster as I touch and play with her contents.
I'm feeling those old and comfortable feelings of excitement over the ideas that are racing around in my head.
Thankful for the little surprises and treasures she has given me today.
The finding of things I forgot I purchased and had tucked away inside her.
She kept them safe, waiting for me until I was ready.
Thankful too for my friend Traci, who didn't give up on me and invited me out to scrapbook this Saturday.
It's going to rain here for two days, the perfect weather to dive into the basement and reserect my scrapbook room.
(insert of humor)
I did try this back in February but,...
When you think you are dying you clean out your scrapbook room much differently than when you think you may be around a bit longer!
I think there may be more treasures that await me
I can't wait to find out and see!