The Climb.... take 2
At the beginning of the year I picked the word Climb to be my "word" for the year. A sort of anthem of how I intended on living my life for the next year. I can tell you now some 8 months later that I did alot of climbing, but usually because I had fallen so far.
One day back in february I suddenly felt completely overwhelmed and started experiencing full blown panic attacks. I entered into therapy and today can say that therapy saved my life. ( thanks Beth)
I entered into the therapy thinking or telling myself I was there for one thing, but along the way the truth came bubbling to the surface and then .... set my free.
I've wrestled many times over letting my blog go, but I just couldn't pretend anymore. I didn't want to put it all out there; everything I was struggling with and so, I walked away from pretty much everything I knew and used to love doing.
What I can do is say that I appreciate all of you who have taken the time to inquire about me, the blog and my convertables.
As I write this I am sitting in my scrapbook room, a room that looks as if it was once used, but now is filled with the things noone knows what to do with. And I'm excited, I'm excited to start the next excavation of my life and peel back the layers of dust on this old friend of mine.
I've cleaned off my computer screen and dusted off the keyboards.
So if you've stumbled back here to have a little look see....
I'm back!
xo
Wednesday, September 1, 2010 at 06:59PM
Reader Comments (7)
So happy you are back and doing well. I have missed you my sweet friend and have been in that scary dark place. It's hard to explain unless you have been there. I personally would never want to go back. So with that said , I know it has been a hard climb and you are back and more beautiful than ever...and I don't think Picnik had a thing to do with it.
Love to You and Welcome Back...
So glad your back! And I'm happy your doing better. for the last 3 years I have been helping my daughter and her two kids after she went through a very painful divorce, and at the same time caring for my dying mother. It has been a tough road and wonder how I've been able to cope with it all. My daughter has suffered from severe anixety attacks and depression. We have spent the last year in a custody battle with her X. I just wish it all would end and my life would return to some sorts of normalcy if there's such a thing. I'm looking forward to you diving back in, and have always enjoyed your blog. if you ever want to chat I'm here..... take care my blog friend. Kim :)
ahhh glad you are back. I hope you begin to blog regularly again. I really enjoy what you do share. I'm really glad that you figured out that you needed to work though what was bothering you and you are in a better place because of therapy. I go every other Tuesday and it has def helped me get out of some ruts.
Keep on going! I can't wait to catch up on how you have been transforming your life
di!!! i couldnt be happier!
and on a completely random note, thanks to all your music on here, i actually started watching glee, and now im addicted....cant wait for the new season to start! ive only got a few episodes left in season 1!
oh diana!!! i am so glad to see your shining face! i've thought about you so much since mother's day and have prayed that you were all right. therapy, counseling, whatever you call it is an amazing journey! i know because i saw a counselor every two weeks for 9 months while i was pregnant with piper and it was the way i was able to get on the road to healing and believing in things again. i'm so happy that your reintroducing yourself to your room and all the goodies it contains. i pray that God showers you with joy when you begin to create again. take good care, friend! i'm so glad to see you back :)
I am very glad to see you back to blogging and being creative. It always seems as if the times in our lives that are the most painful, are the times we grow the most. And facing the truths in our lives, nothing can be more freeing than the truth!!! Good for you for getting yourself through such a difficult time and not allowing anxiety and panic to take over your life!
So happy you are back and feeling better Diana! Kudos to you for taking charge of yourself and doing what you needed to do! Hope that creative muse finds you again, you do such wonderful works. Maybe You, Traci, Cathy and I can hook up for some creative playtime!
Blessings,