Goosebumps
You may remeber in the post I did called the Rainbow Connection. Since my mom passed we see alot of rainbows and believe they are her way of saying she's ok etc.
I have seen rainbows , but mine are kinda here and there.
My sister's are all the time. Seriously all she has to do is think of my mom, look up into the sky and BAM!rainbows appear.
I have selfishly hoped for a definite mom moment. I have really struggled with how she left us and struggled with believing she is in a better place and not looking down here worrying about all of us.
Last night I dreamnt she called me, not like our regular calls when she was alive, but called me from heaven.
I was not comforted by this, I woke up with a migraine and was just off all day. I remeber crying alot in the dream, but mom was so calm full of loving, comforting words.
My sister called later in the dayand could tell that I was "off ".
I tell her my about the dream and how I haven't been myself since. She is exstatic saying it's a gift and that I should be happy, when...
( here comes the goosebump moment )
She says you are not going to believe this but I am looking up at the sky and through a break in the clouds there is.... A RAINBOW!!!!!!!
It's like the old saying goes... Be careful what you wish for!
Hey, the airline has offered me a free ticket for my near death flight experience.
What to do? What to do?
I think I'll save it for spring break!
That is if Marie will have me!
Wednesday, November 11, 2009 at 07:27PM
Reader Comments (3)
Diana,
Oh how I know how your feeling....I still dream of my mother passing and Im beside her then she moves but no one see this but me. I just can't let her go. Her last two years she was bed ridden and I can't forget those long two years of caring for her and trying to make her better.I feel so guilty at times that I wasn't able to make her better. I want to just remember all the good times,the way one should remember their mother.... but they seem to always be smothered. I started seeing butterflies the day we buried my mother. We had the whole family back on her farm in Illinois, we were cooking out on the deck she so loved. All her grown children and grandchildren. The sun was just beginning to set, and there was this beautiful butterfly that just flew around us all never leaving. The moment felt so right. Every summer I go back to Illinois, her little old farmhouse to relax and enjoy the peacefulness. i feel so close to her and my father when Im there. I went out to the national cementary where they were both burried, sat down on the grass, told them both how very much I missed them and how sorry I was that I couldn't take away their pain and suffering, then I looked down on the grass where they lay and there was a heart in the grass. I felt peace at that moment. I think I posted the picture of the heart in the grass on my blog if you go back a bit. I still see butterflies, and I smile. I miss them so much. May our memories comfort us.. thanks for sharing.
On aother note, where you on the US Airways flight in the Hudson? Kim
Honestly I have witnessed some of these rainbow experiences with Tiff! Tiff and I were sitting in her car waiting for Katie O'Connor's church rehersal to start. I was snooping through her glove box and found a bunch of old pictures. I pulled out one of Katie and Tiff from college. Tiff asked me, "do you see that?" I look and there is a rainbow across Katie's face! Keep in mind this was at 8pm so it was coming from the interior light of her car somehow! We did not see the rainbow in the car until we looked at that picture! I had serious goosebumps! Just thought I would share.
I know it didn't feel good at the time, but I'm so glad you got to "talk" to your mom. After my Samuel died I remember thinking, I can't wait to go to sleep so I can see him. Only thing is that God knew better and never "brought" him to me while I slept. I think that's because if I did get to see him, hold him, feel him in my dream I would have never wanted to wake up. Instead God showed Samuel to me each day that I needed it. Every time I would think "am I doing this right, it hurts sooo much" God would send a little butterfly to me. It never mattered where I was, the butterfly always came! Maybe that's a little of what happened to you, God sent the rainbow through your sister so you would know.